In The Dark Felling Alone

She lays in the dark only to feel alone,
Playing the distant memories in her mind,
Knowing there is no truth to set her free,
Confusion makes her mind race,
Jealousy leads her down a path that’s not familiar,
Her heart calls out,
Waiting for the truth to be revealed to her,
Suspicion begins to grow,
Doubt is running in her head of many memories and situations,
Her heart begins to brake into a million pieces,
Her knight in shining armor is only a distant memory,
Denial began to fade to her past of the life she once had,
No reconciliation of what a true strong relationship is,
Never wanting to get close to the opposing gender,
For they only bring hurt to her life,
She envies her father and mother,
Seeing them happily in love meant for one-another,
Her life begins to dissipate,
Not wanting to love no one but her family,
Are her jealous suspicions the truth or a lie?
Is her heart that she has corrected, about everything she has thought about?
Laying in the dark on the floor the knight in shining armor is no-more in the sight of the alone,
Her heart has old wounds opening again,
For the realization of what her knight may be doing,
The remembrance of what has been done in the past from those she had open her heart to,
Her tears start to fall to the floor in the lightless room,
The hurtful memories become fresh once again,
The anticipation of the truth is unbearable,
Will these wounds and hurtful memories ever subside?
Is there any one out there that will make her feel happy?